Yet Another Letter to His Holiness John Paul II

My dear brothers and sisters in Christ, it has been over two months since I last wrote. I have been spending this time as God so wills me to, as a wife, mother and a very concerned Roman Catholic striving to truly know everything I can about our precious Faith so that I will never be an instrument to lead even one soul astray. For that reason I have spent much time in prayer for there the graces flow and enable each of us to be guided to the Truths our Holy Church teaches.

This column is called "Symphony of Suffering" for there are great graces in offering our sufferings. Today I share with you another letter I am sending to His Holiness Pope John Paul II in hope against hope that he will respond by addressing the serious questions I pose on behalf of millions of Roman Catholics who suffer as well and have the very same concerns.

Your Holiness, I write to you again, for my heart is very heavy. I had first written to you in June of this past year, but received not one word of reply. Yet, I come again to you, as a humble little child, a daughter of God and of Holy Mother Church, to ask you to clarify for me, and for many, some very important questions that have arisen, things that go against what Our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ teach.

Your Holiness, from the cradle all Roman Catholics have been taught the Ten Commandments, which we are still to abide by, for they are incorporated in the Eight Beatitudes, and in the Two Great Commandments of the New Testament. The first of the Ten Commandments says very plainly, as you know, "I am the Lord Thy God, Thou Shalt Not Have Strange Gods before Me."

Holy Father, on many occasions, most recently this past January 24, 2002, you have held pan-religious ecumenical prayer meetings in places that astound the Catholic world. Most shocking was the blessed place of Assisi, where St. Francis lived and worked tirelessly to "rebuild" Christ's Church. Today all signs point to that being the 'new springboard point' where the Church is torn-down and compromised for there in that hallowed place, sanctified by Christ through St. Francis and St. Clare, you have allowed other faiths to come and to pray within the hallowed places of Assisi, even requiring the Friars of St. Francis to take down crucifixes lest our separated brethren be scandalized by the Crucifix, the very symbol of the Authentic Roman Catholic Faith, for which countless souls down through the centuries have given their lives to defend against infidels. Dear Holy Father, why? Why and how can you allow this? You have given these false religions the same status as the One True Faith founded by Jesus Christ. You have placed false gods before God, by allowing such things as a statue of Buddha being placed atop the Holy of Holies - the Tabernacle - and there incensed and prayed to by all present, including yourself. Like the Apostle St. Thomas I doubted you would do such a thing. Yes, I wouldn't have believed it had I not seen the photos for myself. Your very presence at these pan-religious gatherings gives great scandal to the true Catholic heart, and there are many of your flock that groan and cry out, and seek answers to your words and your actions.

You have praised Islam, and have said in many remarks that we - that is Roman Catholics - and Islamics pray to the same God. That is not true, your Holiness, and you must know this. The Koran is a false book. It is not the Bible - the Divinely revealed Word of God. The Koran denies the Divinity and role of Jesus Christ as Redeemer of the world. It denies, therefore, the Most Holy Trinity. The Koran may speak nice words, but its sole purpose is to spread its false ideology throughout the world, to conquer and then destroy Christianity. This has been the case since the time of Mohammed in the seventh century. Yet, now, in the 21st century, it is as if the very core of the Koran seems to have shed new light, where there never was light, for it was not of God…if could not be of God, for it contradicted plainly everything Our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ commanded and set forth in the Gospels, which the Koran denies.

Your Holiness, I believe that you are the Vicar of Christ. I also believe that as Vicar of Christ, you must uphold the Infallible, Perennial Magisterium of the Church which has been passed down through the centuries, defined infallible at the Council of Trent (as well as many councils before it) and the First Vatican Council. There are many Catholics who would like to know why, if an explanation is possible in definitive terms, why only Vatican Council II is referenced now in any encyclical or document, papal bull, or speech of your Holiness? Why, Holy Father, is this so, especially in light of the fact the Church did not begin in 1965 when Vatican II closed, but began with Jesus Christ, Who set down for all time and for all ages the way, the manner in which the Most Perfect of all Prayers - the Most Holy Sacrifice of the Altar must be said, and the very words that must be used for the confection of the Most Blessed Sacrament.

Your Holiness, I am not a scholar. I am not a theologian. I am a simple daughter of Holy Mother Church, and to you do I look for direction in my sojourn to Heaven. Dear Holy Father, I have read all the councils from the Council of Jerusalem (contained in the Acts of the Apostles) straight through to Vatican Council II. In my reading, it was quite obvious to me at once that the documents of Vatican Council II deny implicitly, and often with great ambiguity, all that came before it. It is easy to see the negation of all that the Infallible, Perennial Magisterium had held in the Sacred Deposit of Faith, to which all Roman Catholics are to adhere with their entire beings, so that through the Ministry of Holy Mother Church they may attain eternal salvation. The subsequent post-conciliar documents continue this negation of the Infallible Sacred Deposit of Faith as handed down from Jesus to the Apostles, to Peter the First Pope, until the present. As the years have worn on, Holy Father, much of what you have written in your encyclicals, in documents, papal bulls, motu proprios, speeches, audiences and homilies undermines all that came before Vatican II. For example, in Dominus Iesus you state that "outside the Church there is no salvation", which of course is an infallible Truth. Yet, in that same document, as well as others, such as in Ut Unum Sint, you also say that other religions can also be a means to salvation. You seek to give credence to the continued error of the Jews who to this day refuse to accept Jesus Christ as the Messiah, the Son of God made Man. You speak of their religion as bringing them to salvation. In the Sacred Scriptures, specifically Mark 16: 16-16 Christ commanded His Apostles to go into all the corners of the world, preaching His Gospel. He commanded them to convert the infidels, saying that those who believed and were baptized would be saved, but they that refused to believe and were not baptized would not be saved.

Holy Father, Christ cannot change His mind. Has Holy Mother Church changed her mind, which must always be the mind of Christ? It would seem so, from the great ecumenical push you have given so much time to, while at the same time, neglecting those of your flock who ask questions that deserve answers, and you turn us away by your silence. My husband wrote a commentary last week - one read in this publication of The DAILY CATHOLIC in over 100 countries by tens of thousands of people daily - that the post-conciliar church is not truly Catholic because the Marks of the True Church have been blurred. This is a grave accusation, but one that is backed fully by the Infallible, Perennial Magisterium of the Church in all that is contained in the Sacred Deposit of Faith. Why do you allow such fallacies that have been promulgated through the reforms of Vatican II to continue? Do you not realize that your time to make amends is running very, very short? Soon you will have to stand before the Almighty Judge and answer for your actions. You, especially to whom has been given care as the Keeper of the Keys, will have to explain to the Heavenly Father why you did not safeguard the Sacred Deposit of Faith as Jesus reminds in Luke 12: 48, "And unto whomsoever much is given, of him much shall be required: and to whom they have committed much, of him they will demand the more."

I don't believe, your Holiness, that I am being out of line in saying that we, as the faithful flock, demand more from our Chief Shepherd. In your Motu Proprio "Ecclesia Dei" you told the Bishops of all dioceses throughout the world to make readily available the Tridentine Mass for all who desired this Sacred Tradition. Yet, at the same time, Your Holiness, through your office of "Ecclesia Dei" and with your knowledge and support, your appointed Head of this Commission, Cardinal Hoyos, the Fraternity of St. Peter, which you began under your own Apostolic Administration, has been put on notice that the "Novus Ordo" Mass is also to be said, denying the very reason for the elevation of the Fraternity in the first place-that is, to say the Tridentine Mass. The same is true, also, of the Society of St. John. You have, through the office of Ecclesia Dei met with the Superiors of the Fraternity of St. Peter and of the Society of St. John, and have informed them that soon (a date was not given) that an announcement will be forthcoming from the Congregation for the Doctrine of the Faith, which will make major changes to the Indult Mass of the 1962 Missal, and by such changes, it will cease to be the Tridentine Mass. The priests have been told that they must either comply, or leave their chosen order. How can this be, Holy Father? On the one hand you say to the Bishops, "Make the Tridentine Mass readily available for those of the universal flock who retain their devotion to this Latin Rite," and on the other hand, you change the rules in mid-stream, causing major confusion and mistrust between those who truly know their Faith and hold it as precious and uncompromising, and much of this, Holy Father, bears the mark of internal politics within the Roman Curia, and a back-handed plot to destroy the last bastion of the Authentic Roman Catholic Faith.

Why do you hold such resentment towards the Society of St. Pius X? In reading His Excellency's Archbishop Marcel Lefebvre's writings, I see nowhere where he was not in full harmony with the Infallible, Perennial Magisterium of the Church in totally upholding and safeguarding the Sacred Deposit of Faith. I am not surprised that the bulk of this so-called 'schismatic' group has seen through the modernists' agenda and refuse to compromise politically. I am sadly surprised that the priests of Campos bit on the rotting carrots that Rome offered them. They, too, will soon be faced with the same dilemna the Fraternities of St. Peter and St. John will encounter. Why this terrible hatred toward Traditionalists, your Holiness? What are you trying to hide, Holy Father? I say that in all sincerity for the only plausible reasons you would not listen with great wisdom to the wise words Bishop Bernard Fellay and his representatives have offered lovingly and charitably, yet firmly would have to be that someone would have to have something on you - blackmail, if you will - for you to listen to the wrong advice of a corrupt, Masonic Curia. Everyday more souls are being lost as you continue your non-Catholic agenda of ecumenism. You say there is no turning back. For the sake of your eternal soul, dear Holy Father, the only way to save yourself and the Church you serve is to renounce the fruitless reforms of Vatican II and return the universal Church to the purity of the Sacred Deposit of Faith as taught infallibly up until the Modernists' takeover during the reign of Pope John XXIII and so completely under Pope Paul VI's papacy.

You have managed to complete the beatification of John XXIII and are in the process of doing the same for Paul VI. Why the rush, your Holiness? Have these past Pontiffs led such holy lives that they are now to be beatified according to the new, relaxed rules for canonization which you created when you authorized a renovation and rewrite of the 1917 Code of Canon Law in 1983? How can we believe what you say, or the Congregation for the Causes of Saints in promoting the conciliar pontiffs' sanctity when we have undeniable proof that indeed their actions were the antithesis of holiness? How can we place any credence in the credibility of so many new blesseds and saints when so much has been relaxed? How can we trust the institution of the Roman Curia who have knowingly lied to the faithful about Fatima? What else have they lied to us about? Nearly everytime someone from Rome today opens their mouth it seems they are just covering up another lie. And that has been the great problem of your advancement of the reforms of Vatican II, dear Holy Father, because in doing so you are enabling a lie to cover another lie and so on, until, as my husband says, 'it just gets piled deeper and deeper as perfect fodder for the guy with the pitchfork.'

I ask, Holy Father, for it appears to me that there is much propaganda coming from the Roman Curia - for example, the widely expressed idea that the body of John XXIII was incorrupt. In past centuries, before there were any means of preserving a body, the incorrupt bodies of such Saints as St. Bernadette, St. Vincent De Paul, and so many others, bore the stamp of God's approval that these chosen souls were to be raised to the altar. Now, however, with the world at large in awe that the body of John XXIII is incorrupt, it is also known, though not through the Vatican Press, that he knew well in advance of his death of a method developed by a doctor in Rome which would preserve the body incorrupt, and that this doctor did indeed perform all the necessary requirements for preserving his body in such a manner as to lead the faithful to believe his sanctity was evident because his mortal body was incorrupt, when in fact, it was due to medical advancement.

And you continue the subterfuge, Holy Father, by giving credence to the man-made created "mass" of Paul VI, the "Novus Ordo", which was not of Divine Origin as is the Authentic Tridentine Mass held as infallible by Holy Mother Church from the earliest centuries, and set forth as such at the Council of Trent, which was an Infallible Council, Your Holiness. Pope St. Pius V, in his Papal Bull Quo Primum , codified the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass in accordance with the Infallible Decrees of the Council of Trent, and declared that should anyone, be he layman, prelate, or even pontiff, alter this most Sacred Holy Sacrifice of the Mass, he would "incur the wrath of Almighty God and of the Blessed Apostles Peter and Paul." Yet, Pope Paul VI, had no qualms when he appointed, after the close of the Council, and without the Council Father's vote to change the Mass, a committee composed of a 33rd Degree Mason, Cardinal Annibale Bugnini, a Marxist Priest, and six Protestant ministers to create a "new" man-made "mass" that, while introduced in such an underhanded, cowardly way by Paul VI who "wished" that all Catholics would accept this "new mass" for it did not in any way differ from that Mass which was the Mass of our forefathers, the Mass of the Saints, the Mass of All Times and of all Places, seemed to have completely forgotten his Sacred Oath that all Pontiffs had taken even then that they would uphold the Infallible Sacred Deposit of Faith and guard it with their lives, and dared to impose through BLIND obedience on the Catholic World a "new mass" that was no "mass" at all, but rather a Great Sacrilege, for it did not contain the "Sacrificial" nature that the Mass must always have, and dared to change the Sacred Canon of the Mass, as infallibly defined at the Council of Trent, codified by Quo Primum, and even went so far as to change the indisputable words of Our Lord Himself necessary for the transubstantiation of the wine into the Most Sacred Blood of Our Lord Jesus Christ. Right there is one of the greatest lies of a Pope - a direct lie that, sadly, so many, through blind obedience, continue to believe. Is this right? Is this in accordance with what Christ asks? Is this anyway to run a Church, your Holiness. And why, Holy Father, at the moment of your acceptance of your election to the Chair of Peter, did you not take the same Oath as all other Pontiffs before you? That greatly disturbs me for there is no rhyme nor reason why you wouldn't do what every Vicar of Christ before you did to safeguard the Truths and Traditions of Holy Mother Church. Why would you not reinstate the mandatory Oath Against Modernism and Prayer to Saint Michael which Blessed Pius IX and Pope Leo XIII inserted to protect our beloved Holy Church. Do you not want to protect her?

How, Your Holiness, can you protect souls with all the aberrations you have allowed including the man-made "mass" of Paul VI? It is contrary in every aspect to the Divinely given "Mass" of Our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. With all respect, Holy Father, there is no "defense" for this Sacrilege called the "Novus Ordo". With all respect, Holy Father, any Catholic who truly knows their faith, it is clear that this "Novus Ordo" was intended to Protestanize the Catholic Church, and to lead to, as is coming to pass, a pan-one-world religion. The Infallible Decrees of the Council of Trent were completely ignored by the committee who created this "novus ordo", and, pardon me, dear Holy Father, for I am adamant, but the Council of Trent was INFALLIBLE, Vatican Council II was NOT!

Yet another question Your Holiness, from a little child who, though ignorant of the political maneuvering of the Roman Curia, has been blessed to know her faith thoroughly. Your Pontificate is marked by ecumenism. By your definition of ecumenism, as played out for these several decades now, you wish to unite all men through "liberty, equality, fraternity", which are the very words of the French Revolution, and the cause of the destruction of Holy Mother Church in France, the first daughter of the Roman Catholic Church, that place on earth in which the Mother of God has chosen to appear in more than several places, and to Saints raised to the altar, who are also from that country that once was a jewel in the crown of Holy Mother Church for her fervent obedience to the Infallible Teaching of the Perennial Magisterium of the Church. You have brought together time and again religious leaders from every persuasion. You have spoken to every major and minor false religion, and have participated in their practices. This is scandalous, Your Holiness. It is a sin against the First Commandment, and against the Two Great Commandments of the New Testament. You have elevated false religions to the status that they, too, may lead to salvation, which is contrary to what Christ Himself taught and commanded. You push toward a "global" village, a "global" society in which all men are united under one "faith." But which faith is that, Your Holiness? You have spoken out vigorously many times, condemning the actions of the Church in past centuries for her "proselytizing", and have made it very clear that there will be no more efforts from the Roman Catholic Church to "convert" anyone from their false religion to the One True Faith. You have sought compromise at the expense of the Eternal Truth, and have given scandal to those Roman Catholics who still know their Faith, and cannot be reconciled between the infallible teachings which they hold dear and guard with their life, and your actions and words which deny these very Eternal Truths. Please, Your Holiness, how can you explain this to your children in the Church? What are we to think?

I have many more questions, Your Holiness, that is true and therefore, I will follow up soon with more questions for it is our privilege and, yes, duty, to ask our Servant of the Servants of God how these variations from the True Faith could ever be condoned. I realize your schedule is very heavy as you travel the world for the sake of ecumenism. But I do have one last question that I must ask for the sake of the priceless gift of the One True Faith which God has deemed to give to me. Holy Father, why do you apologize for everything Holy Mother Church did throughout the centuries…for She was the foundation of civilization in every region of the world… when you do not apologize to the faithful of the Roman Catholic Church who are dismayed at your actions and words, and who believe that you must first apologize to Almighty God for rejecting the Infallible Sacred Deposit of Faith so held and so guarded from the time of Christ until Vatican Council II, and to all your children who know their Faith and know that its expression exists in the Traditional Latin Rite, which has NEVER BEEN ABROGATED and could not for St. Pius assured that. Yet, why do you cower from letting the faithful know this? Who is in charge of our Church - you or the bishops? If it is the bishops since your Cardinal Hoyos has expressed that Rome is afraid of their rejection of the truths of the Latin Mass, then, Holy Father, where is the Primacy of Peter? Since the Latin Mass has never been forbidden, then do you not have another apology to make? That would be to the late Archbishop Lefebvre whose character your regime has greatly assassinated, as well as those who strive to truly fulfill God's Holy Will. Why are you so afraid of one Father Nicholas Gruner? Like Lefebvre before his forced 'excommunication' by political modernists out to silence him, Gruner is the target today. One man? Please, Holy Father, we are not stupid. Russia is in far worse condition spiritually today than ever before, even during the terrible persecutions of the Iron Curtain days, which were only perpetuated by John XXIII and Paul VI's unbelievable, traitorous acceptance of the Pact of Metz. If we are to believe what Rome says about the fulfillment of the Fatima Messages, then are we to call Our Lady a liar? That would be blasphemy.

Yet there has been too much blasphemy coming from those entrusted to the care of souls and appointed by you. This madness, this demolition of our beloved Faith must stop and you are the only one who can effect it. With your last dying breath, I, along with millions of loyal Catholics ask, plead with you to be totally entrusted to Mary, to be loyal to your highest office, to be loyal to the One Whom you represent on earth and be not afraid; return Holy Mother Church to the absolutes and disciplines she was so respected for before Vatican II, and of which so many fruits were made so abundant over the centuries. Dear Holy Father, we are not blind, though you trump that there are so many fruits from the 'New Springtime,' in truth, we have had 40 years of winter where no fruit can grow. In your heart you must know why this is - because a bad tree can never bear good fruit (cf. Matthew 7: 17).

I assure you I am being truly obedient and, in all humility, I ask you dear Pontiff, just as Paul did of Peter in resisting him to his face, are we to blindly obey you when what you ask is in contradiction to what is taught by the Infallible, Perennial Magisterium of the Church, or are we to be truly obedient to the Petrine Primacy by bringing these grave problems to your attention?

As a humble daughter of the Church and of God, I will wait patiently again to hear from you. I beg you, do not have one of your secretaries send me a "form letter" saying that my letter has been received and will be given serious attention. That has been the case with several friends who have taken it upon themselves, in the same manner of charity and humility, to have you clarify the state of Holy Mother Church this day and age, with all that was Infallibly Defined prior to Vatican II, which Council was pastoral only. Nothing, Holy Father, has been declared infallible since 1950 when Pope Pius XII declared the Dogma of the Assumption. I beseech you, on behalf of millions of children in the Church who cannot fathom the destruction of the Faith, to have the courtesy to address these questions put forth by me, and by me on behalf of so many who would like to write to you, but feel they can never reach you, never be heard by you, and never be answered in truth by you directly, but only through a Curia member.

Your Holiness, I pray for you and for Holy Mother Church every day of my life. I value my Faith beyond anything else on earth. Therefore, I ask God to assist you each moment of your life and throughout the remainder of your Pontificate, and beseech the Holy Ghost to clarify the questions I have asked, so that we may understand one another in Truth - which is God, for I, as a True Roman Catholic must be OBEDIENT to the Perennial, Infallible Magisterium of the Church, and not give BLIND OBEDIENCE to the ordinary magisterium of the church for the sake of my soul's eternal salvation.

Your very little daughter who cries out to you and for you,

Cyndi (Cain)

June 3, 2001
Feast of Pentecost

His Holiness John Paul II
Office of the Sovereign Pontiff of Rome
Apostolic Palace
00120 Vatican City State, Europe

Your Holiness,

Dear Holy Father, Vicar of Christ, visible head of the Roman Catholic Church on earth, I come before you as a loyal and faithful daughter of the Church since my baptism in infancy to this present day. I come with humility, with tears in my eyes, to implore you, Your Holiness, to answer several questions that weigh so heavily upon my heart that I must ask them of you.

Dear Holy Father, where have they taken Him Whom I love with my whole being? Where is my Lord Jesus Christ, my Lord, God and Savior? Where have they hidden Him? Tell me, Most Holy Father, so that I may find Him, my Crucified Savior. I must find Him so that once again I can kneel before Him and beg of Him His Mercy, but also to thank Him, to prostrate myself before Him, to be crucified with Him for the salvation of my soul and the souls of many others as He Wills.

Dear Holy Father in my diocese and especially in the "new" churches that are being built, I cannot find Him. There is no crucifix that says I am in a Catholic Church. There is nothing anymore that even resembles a Catholic Church.

Why, Holy Father, have they taken My Lord away from His rightful place in the Sanctuary of the Church? Why has Jesus been hidden in a corner where few even know He is there in the Tabernacle? Why has the "presider's chair" replaced Jesus, and why must I hunt for the Tabernacle when I enter a Church?

Dear Holy Father, why has the altar become a mere table, around which the faithful are called to gather, not to offer to the Father the eternal Sacrifice of Calvary, the unbloody Sacrifice of the Mass, but rather a "eucharistic banquet" around which table the faithful are comfortably arranged as if one were attending a theater performance rather than the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass?

Holy Father, Christ's Vicar on Earth, I have struggled but remained faithful to the Novus Ordo Mass since its inception in the 60's after Vatican II closed. Why, Holy Father have the Bishops not clearly understood that Latin was never taken away, never abrogated, never forbidden? Why, Holy Father, do the Bishops continue to allow anything to take place at the Most August Sacrifice of the Mass, and have taught nothing of the true tenets of our One Holy Catholic and Apostolic Faith for over three decades? Why has the awesome and august Sacrament of Holy Communion been reduced to such irreverence that in the United States an alarming number of Catholics do not believe in the Divine Presence, and, furthermore, many priests say that it is only symbolic?

Holy Father, on bended knee, I ask you yet another question.

From my youth God has blessed me with a deep personal devotion to Him, to Jesus, and to His Most Holy Mother. You have as your motto "Totus Tuus" and every Catholic around the world knows your devotion to the Blessed Mother. Why, Holy Father, have they taken away the statues of Our Lord, His Blessed Mother, St. Joseph, and any of the saints and angels that always spoke to us, the faithful, of the journey home to Heaven, that spurred us on in this earthly valley of tears to strive for holiness, and to ask it of God at every Sacrifice of the Mass. Those were our Heavenly role models. Why did they get rid of them?

Your Holiness, I am confused about some of the things you have written and said. I cannot comprehend why you would say such things and do such things that fly in the face of all I was taught as a child, and which I learned to love and to grow in that love of Our Lord for His Sake alone, loving Him because He is Perfect Love. Why was I confirmed to be a soldier of Christ, and to seek for all the years of my life, to imitate Him, to take my example from the lives of the saints, willing to suffer and to die for Him, for the One, True Faith that He gave to us through Peter, His rock, upon whom Christ built His Church?

Holy Father, I have always been taught and I believe with my whole being that the Roman Catholic Church is the One True Church, and all other faiths are in error and must therefore be brought to the light of the full truth, which only the Roman Catholic Church contains. This is so much a part of my soul that I cannot even fathom your recent comments when in Greece that any proselytizing should be condemned, when missionaries for ages past gave their lives that the True Faith may be made known to all other nations, to all people of other faiths?

Now you say in your address to the Greek Orthodox that proselytizing is wrong, and that in your encyclical Ut Unum Sint you have "consigned to oblivion the excommunications of the past". Help Me, Holy Father, to understand why you would say these things when so many of the Doctors of the Church, the Fathers of the Church, and your predecessors as successors of Peter stood strongly for, condemning the heresies and apostasy that battered at the Church, standing strong upon the Sacred Deposit of Faith, on the knowledge that only to the Successor of Peter is given the full and complete authority to govern and to teach, and to do so infallibly on matters of faith and morals when spoken ex cathedra.

When you "consign to oblivion the excommunications of the past" you have to include Martin Luther and others who professed heresy and apostasy, and who led others into schism from the One True Faith. Is this not so? Tell me, for I kneel before you, the Vicar of Christ, the Supreme Pontiff, to ask if in "consigning to oblivion the excommunications of the past" your intention includes the more recent excommunications of one of Holy Mother Church's true sons, Msgr. Marcel LeFebvre. In reading Ut Unum Sint there can be no other logical conclusion that anyone could make from your statements, for his excommunication is also consigned to oblivion, for it is of the past.

Holy Father, you ordered that the Latin Mass should be made available generously in every diocese where the faithful asked for the Mass of All Times and Places to be said. Vatican Council II never abrogated the Latin Rite, yet it appears to me, Holy Father that the very Magisterium that comprises the Curia and you, are doing all in their power to do away with anyone who prefers the Latin Rite because in it they see, as I do, the fullness of the Sacred Deposit of Faith. And at the very same time you appear in your statements to the Greek Orthodox to beg their pardon for upholding the Truth, when they were and remain in schism and heresy for they do not believe in the Petrine Succession, nor do they believe in the dogma of the Holy Spirit proceeding from the Father and the Son (Filioque).

Your Holiness, why do you put aside the excommunications of the past in an effort to further ecumenism, whereby you seem to be leading Holy Mother Church into a position where she will be just one church among so many other churches. Will you, Holy Father, also change or alter in any way the Petrine Primacy? I cannot understand, Your Holiness, why you would call a Consistory of the College of Cardinals to discuss the "Role of the Papacy", and in the discussions of the Cardinals, there were more than a few who spoke openly about a broad "collegiality", which has been described and therefore understood by many of the faithful as a "democratization" of the Papacy. An openness in expression of "opinions" is what many of the Cardinals asked for, nay, demanded, of you, and you said you would take all of the recommendations of the Cardinals under consideration?

Holy Father, what are you considering concerning the Supreme Office of the Chair of Peter? You are the legitimate successor of St. Peter, and to you have been given the Keys of the Kingdom of God. Why, Holy Father, would you even consider any change in the monarchial structure of Holy Mother Church, which Christ Himself declared when He chose Peter to be the Prince of the Apostles and gave to Him the full and supreme power to act, teach, and govern in His Name, so that the One True Faith He gave to the world might be preached to every nation, and every nation could be brought into the One True Faith through conversion as Jesus asks in Mark 16: 15?

Do you see, Holy Father, why I, a humble daughter of the Church, am confused at best, and worried about the changes that have already reduced the Roman Catholic Church into a more protestant church, and am even more concerned about further changes in Holy Mother Church that could very well take away the Four Marks of the One True Church?

I have taken the lives of the saints into my heart and pondered there upon their lives that I, too, through God's grace and Mercy, may attain to sainthood, to the degree of sanctity to which Our Lord has ordained me. But now, Holy Father, when you "consign to oblivion the excommunications of the past," when, in Assisi in 1986, you permitted a statue of Buddha to be placed upon the tabernacle and allowed and participated in the Buddhist monks offering incense to a false god, I must ask if these dear saints, be they martyrs or not, gave their lives over to Christ in vain, since you have apologized for the Church (not the individuals who may have sinned) for Her sins of the past? Holy Father, the Church is holy. It is so because Christ is the Head, and He alone is Holy, for He is God. The human members of the Mystical Body of Christ in the Church Militant do sin, and they are called to repentance through the Sacrament of Penance. However, Holy Father, in this diocese, and in many others in the United States, this Sacrament of Reconciliation has been so reduced that the notion or understanding of sin is also consigned to the past. Everyone goes to Communion, dressed in any type of clothing, and many times immodest, to receive Our Lord Himself in such a manner that can only be described as low, even base and lacking any clarity of thought that it is Christ Himself that they are receiving.

Holy Father, would you be so kind to explain to your humble little daughter why all of the reforms of Vatican Council II have reduced the One True Faith into just another church among many other churches? Can you explain why you have "consigned to oblivion all the excommunications of the past" thus voiding the true saintliness of the martyrs and saints, who gave their lives that heresy, apostasy, and schism from the One True Faith might cease as God intends, not as man intends to form a one-world religion, so as to fulfill, in human terms, that passage in Sacred Scripture where Our Lord promises that there will be but one flock and one shepherd. Never can there be one flock and one shepherd unless there is but One True Faith to which all other faiths must be converted that they, too, might live.

Holy Father, I am but a humble little child who comes to you, the Vicar of Christ, to ask you to answer these questions for me. I must say to you that I have found again the Latin Mass, and here, Most Holy Father, I find the Fullness of the One True Faith, the sound Dogmas, Doctrines, Teachings and Traditions of the Roman Catholic Faith that have withstood every assault from within and without until Vatican Council II. Here, Holy Father, is my Lord, God and Savior. Here is the Mass I was weaned on and grew to love so. Here, I am able to offer with the celebrant to the Father His Only-Begotten Son in the unbloody sacrifice of Calvary, and here I find that Confession is readily available, sound direction is given by the priest in the confessional, and the beauty, solemnity, and majesty of the One True Faith is extolled, practiced, and loved as the priceless pearl of Sacred Scripture.

Dear Holy Father, we hunger so for the truth and our hearts, minds and souls are only fed by those truths which were absolute, unchangeable prior to Vatican II. Why must the Church conform to the world? We must conform the world to the absolute truths Christ taught. But so much of what has emanated since Vatican II have left Catholics confused, weakened, denied, contradicted, resigned to accept sight unseen the ambiguous rhetoric that fails to confirm or define absolute truths of our Faith.

And, finally, dear Holy Father, please explain to me that passage in Sacred Scripture in which Our Lord Himself asks if, when He returns to earth as Judge, will He find any faith left upon the face of the earth. Surely, Holy Father, He is speaking of the One True Faith that has always marked the Roman Catholic Church, and held her above all other faiths, and has led men unerringly to their eternal end-Heaven. Tell me, please, tell me what did our Blessed Mother mean at LaSalette when she said, "Rome will lose the Faith and become the seat of the antichrist"? I know many in our country have lost the Faith, is Rome losing it, Your Holiness? I pray that is not so.

In truth, Holy Father, I can no longer find My Lord God and Savior, Jesus Christ, in the mainstream Novus Ordo masses of this diocese or most other dioceses, so insidious have the changes been made that have totally made of Holy Mother Church just "another church" on the street corner. My soul nearly starved, my faith was nearly extinguished, until I returned to the Latin Mass. Please, Holy Father, why cannot you say to all the faithful throughout the world that the Latin Mass is totally valid, it was never abrogated, never nullified, and allow any priest anywhere the right and privilege of saying the Latin Mass? Why, Holy Father, if you have "consigned to oblivion all the excommunications of the past" will you not come forward and say that the Society of St. Pius X is totally in accord with the Magisterium and allow those who are adrift on an ever-changing sea of experimentation within Holy Mother Church to once again find their sure anchor in this most august rite that has never changed in upholding the fullness of the Roman Catholic Faith?

With deep affection and humble obedience, I pray that you will have but a moment to answer me, so that I might be informed if I have misunderstood what you have said and done. I pray for you every single day of my life and will continue to do so. Please, Holy Father, among all the other letters you must receive, I pray that this little letter will be answered, not only for my sake, but for the many who are also confused, and who wish to attend the Latin Mass which is not readily available, nor in some places, will the local ordinary even allow it. There need be no schism between the Latin Rite and the Novus Ordo Rite. Dear Holy Father, if both rites are right, then there need be no concession needed between either one.

I will close now, Holy Father, because I know that your schedule is very busy and you have little time to listen to even one of your children, a humble daughter seeking answers to serious questions that have arisen since Vatican Council II, and continued by you, who are the Vicar of Christ.

Holy Father, where have they taken Him? Where is my Lord?

I remain your humble servant, Most Holy Father, and I thank you for reading my letter and answering me from your heart.

Your little daughter and humble servant,

Mrs. Cyndi Cain